smashing idols

"I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not give my glory to another or my praise to idols"
- Isaiah 42:8 NIV.

God has given me the joy of deep satisfying worship since spring of 2004 when "The Passion of the Christ" film came out---God used that film to open the eyes of my heart to see Christ suffering and crying out for us and our forgiveness ("Father, forgive them! for they do not know what they do!"---these have to be among the most profound words to ever cross human lips!!). Charles Wesley penned it well---"Hallelujah! What a Savior!!" How could Jesus NOT be beautiful and desirable??

However, a joy in worshipping Christ doesn't flush out all the pet idols we keep, sorry to say. This week, the Holy Spirit confronted me that I had made an IDOL of my job at Deloitte---that is, I derived my sense of WORTH and IDENTITY from my job in Deloitte DCS, rather than in being a child of God...PERIOD. As the scripture from Isaiah above sates, God will not share any of his glory, he will not allow any idols in the believer's heart. Rather, he will smash all idols and kick out any props we lean against. That is is precisely what the Lord has done to me.

I am happy to be consciously aware of my previously unconscious idolatry. I pray to have restored heart, full of authentic worship, satisfied exclusively in Him: detesting all idols. God had to cut my job out from under me in order to get me to see it---and I am grateful.

However, I'm finding myself left with a feeling a desperation for a new identity---and the danger is to jump from the frying pan into the fire---IE: to try to get my sense of identity and worth from a NEW job, or from a Seminary.

May God become even more real...even more glorious...more satisfying!!
dbh